believe in yourself

very lazy to post.. for the past few day my com's connection is not working.. sian.. now at zh house using com.. looking forward for tmr.. going kbox with edward, daniel and maybe weize.. really hope weize can go.. =) these few day i having intensive revision lesson.. next tue will be the last lesson.. yeah.. my holiday is coming =) going to have headache also.. need to plan 5a2'07 class outing..





believe in yourself
and in your dream,
though impossible things may seem
someday, somehow you'll get through
to the goal you have in view


mountians fall and seas divide,
before the one who in his stride
takes a hard road by day
sweeping obstacles away


believe in yourself and in your plan
say not - i cannot- i can
the prizes of life we fail to win
because we doubt the power within

24 may 2008, saturday

i was wake up by fl msg.. she say she wanna meet for a while.. i just acc her go work lol.. we were taking 190, the bus journey is quite long due to the traffic jam.. at 1st we wanna go hereen take newprint but tat side close le.. then we go cine take, fl say she treat me newprint as to encourage me to do better in my result.. thanks a lot =).. then i have my lunch in cine, fl just stay for a while.. after 5mins she went off for work.. she also give me notebook, hp strip and one lolipop.hahax really thanks a lot.. after fl went off, i call zh out.. i wanna go guan yin tang at si ma lu.. i meet zh outside the guan yin tang.. before zh reached, i go in and give a worship.. after tat i come to a uncle who is a fortune-teller cost me $10. he say tis year wo fan tai sui.. got to bai tai sui cost me $12. fan tai sui mean tis year i will meet a lot problem, ya is true for the 1st 5 month i had met a lot problem. he take a look of my plam and say i got the intelligence, born to do business, will get marry with my mr right around 28 yr old,will be healthy wont suffer much from my health, i will live for a long time.. after bai tai sui i donate $10 to the temple.. pay $2.5 for the person to pray for me. $3.4 to buy oil as to offer it to tai sui..
donate another $10 for the ex-convict to help to give them more chance in the society.. when zh reached, we go bugis.. brought watch and skinney jean black in colour for myself, $5 and $28 respectively.. then went to help my mum to buy 6kg pai mee.. thanks zh for helping me to carry them.. after buying the mee, we taking bus back to my home.. reached for a while then i went out again. went to my grandparent house.. stay until 6.30pm. after tat i went to plaza. went there to buy fiona birthday present saw daniel at plaza.. after zh went home, i meet with my friends to celebrate fiona's birthday.. hahax have fun with them.. i also brought myself the cj7 vcd, watch tat with my mum at night..
thanks zh for acc in afternoon..
lastly the fortune-teller say my life is lonely, and i wont have a lot true and close friends.. i think i got to learn to be alone..

report book is out

having morning assembly at 8am, wah it took very long sia about 1 hr 45 mins.. sit until my butt pain and my leg numb & cramp '_' after tat got last lesson of mt intensive resivion. during break time there's nothing to eat, i tahan until ptc is over.. hope i wont get gastric pain cos i always make my stomach hungry for long time.. i gotta take care myself, i cant afford to fall sick le.. after break is poa lesson, mrs goh suddenly say wanna meet my parent. wa so scarely lo, i was thinkin wat did i do wrong why she wanna meet up with my parent.. in the end all the poa students parents she want to meet up lol.. i call my mum to come school early, we meet mrs goh at 12.45pm.. lol she was taking all the good point about me, then the weakness tat i have.. of course the weakness she taking is ENGLISH,she suggest me go British Council.. i just check the website omg the fee is so ex sia.. half year, 20 lesson, 2 hrs cost nearly $1K.. gotta discuss with my parent later..omg omg.. when mrs goh finish her conversation, saw mrs li pass by then mrs goh ask mrs li whether want to talk to my mum.. she go in hod room put her thing 1st then talk to my mum.. i was diao '_'lll when mrs li sit and say she got nothing to talk about me.. then she started by saying i'm hardworking so and so.. it's the same things like wat mrs goh say.. 1pm they going for meeting , so they went off.. i bring my mum to my class wait for ms yong.. i was asking my mum dont u feel sian when listen my teachers comment about me, lol she say yes of course sian la.. every year the comment about me is almost the same.. then i was laughin.. having conversaton with ms yong, the same comments again.. i promise her i will start study tmr, becos i didnt didnt well for my mid exam. she ask me why i didnt do well as i say i didnt study. she tellin me not to give the same excuse anymore..
some of my result is slightly diff from wat i post few days ago..
eng 40.7 E8
chi 68.0 B3
math 71.9 A2
sci 48.8 D7
com hum 43 E8
poa 72 A2
total 344.4/600
%age 57.4
class position 2/40
level position 28/143
L1R4 22
L1R5 30
wanna say congratulate to daniel cos he get 1st position in class..
i got to jia you also
3day to o level chi

sport day

today is sport day=) i take part in 100m and 4X100m, last mins take part in 4X400m.. 100m i got 5th position, 4X100m get 2nd position and 4X400m 1st positon.. thanks yuting tat she join 4X400m, before she take part we were shorting of one person.. if she didnt take part i think we cant run for 1st position.. to yu ting: thanks a lot =) after everything is end, diana, lina and me go gym at jurong.. hahax tis is the 1st time i go gym.. hahax is fun=) i shall go often.. hahax.. lina and diana didnt stay in gym for long time, they like stay around 40mins then they for swimming..i didnt follow them cos i dont feel like swimming.. shall go with them next time,next time we are going wild wild wet =) i stop at 3pm and i was waiting for them until 5plus.. lolx damn tired.. while waiting i fall asleep lol..i keep telling them i'm so hungry when i'm waiting for them.. hahax then we have our early dinner at coffee shop but to me is lunch.. damn tired now.. tmr i think i will have muscle ache.. enjoy today a lot.. thanks diana and lina =)

5 more days to o level chinese

miss my home

i'm back.. for the past few i was staying at melissa's grandma house which toa payoh at 40 storey high.. hahax.. i miss my home esp my family a lot.. hahax damn tired.. working for 8days without resting..now i sort my mind le..
i wont ask for herr forgive le. i realize tat even if the person i hurt has forgive me, i still cant forgive myself..
from today onward i will not to post the sad thing le.. cos there are ppls worry about me.. i wanna say thanks for ur concern i'm fine dont worry..

next mon is my o lvl chi paper.. i got to score well..

jia you peiqi.. self-motivation

TIRED

oh man i'm so tired. tis wk everyday work.. not enough sleep.. today surprise tat i got top and most improvement for chi.. prize is sweets...i cant finish it.. it gonna take long time for me to finish the sweets..maybe 3 to 4 days.. today i wanna share with my class but no time to share with them cos i rushin to work.. tired tired tired.......

result is out

eng P1 26/60 P2 19/50 overall 40.9 E8
math P1 63/80 P2 65/100 overall 71.1 A2
chi P1 50/70 P2 46.5/70 P3 10/20 P4 29/40 overall 67.25 B3
sci P1 26/40 P2 22/65 P3 35/65 overall 48.8 D7
com hum ss 23/50 geo 20/50 overall 43 E8
poa P1 27/40 P2 43/70 overall 63.6 B4

didnt do well for my mid year exam esp eng there is no improvement.. sianz. must go find tution teacher lehh.. shall start study next week le, tis wk i only off tmr.. so cant start study.. hmm ms yong say must start study now without stopping, if not will be too late le.. study last mins sure fail o lvl.. she is rite.. so i got to jia you.. esp my eng.. i wanna to scream out for HELP!!!!

graduating classes: testimonial is ready u guys can come back sch and get it..

alone

didnt go for sport heat today, haiz got headache tis morning. guess is becos i didnt have enough sleep bah.. sian i think i will be disquality for 200m, lina msg me tat today is the final.. haiz.. now i'm alone at home.. sianz.. friendship friendship friendship it's always in my mind no matter wat i do, where i go.. wait wait wait, tis is wat i can do now.. dont know it'll take how long.. i do believe in fate.. i got friendship problem in P6, tis is wat happen. i know fq in P6, i found she is a good friend. i was in middle of sy and fl, sy dont like fl and tat time i was very close to fl then sy started to tell fq bad word about me which is not true. fq say she dont want to friend with me anymore.. haiz, i did cry over about it.. 3 years later which in 2005, i saw her in ljs as i was workin there. i serve her, and did ask for her contact no. we still keep in contact until now.. well tis is a good thing where i start to believe in fate.. but after i meet up with her again, she seen like forget wat had happen in the past. i think time can will take over everything.. thing tat happen can be seen as nothing is happen.. in the past she tot i'll hurtt her, but in the end she is the one who hurtt me, i not blame with her tat cause me leave my pri sch with regret.. and i not blaming fq had hurt me.. tis is just a process of life, i got to learn from everything tat come to me..

last paper

finally, today is the last paper for mid year exam.. sci P1, i think phy is quite easy only chem i found a bit diffcult.. tmr i got to start planning my study timetable le.. if not everything will be too late and very rush.. waiting for my mid year exam result, it will be out in this wed.. tmr still need to wake up early, got sport heat.. 7.15am got to reach cck stadium, omg so early sia.. i'm force to ran relay.. sian..

sat, 10 may

work at boon lay, 3 blk of 11 level, wow i break my record.. hahax. but i didnt sell a lot.. shall do better next time. hmm ting will join me tis comin mon..
happii 19th birthday to michelle bay =)

boring

today paper is science P2 physics, i didnt do finish.. i think i will fail my science badly.. haiz.. sian nobody at home now, dad go to work, mum go market then she will go visit my grandparent, bro go school. nthing to do now.. waiting for tonight.. go work, i wanna keep myself busy. cos been alone is boring, tis morning i was thinkin about these few day, i like live inside a dead body. dont know wat am i doing for these few day, time pass so fast until i cant make use of it.. my life is lifeness.. think mid year exam i will fail badly. i never study seriously.. paper also anyhow do..

CHERISH

1st paper chem 2nd paper poa P1..today chem paper is quite easy but i dont whether i can score well for it anot.. hope there's no so many careless mistake.. as poa P1, luckly there 's no much theory.. i think i'm able to at least B3 ba.. now left with two more papers =) haha after tat can take a break.. ytd night before i fall asleep, i thinks a lot of things nearly cried out. haiz i really hope tat everyone around me will stay healthy, i dont wish to go through the time, feeling of losing my friend, family, and anyone tat i close to. tis feelim is sxxx. my mind is blank, my heart is felt painful. i must cherish my family, friends around.. i told myself tis since 2006, tat year is one of my dad's friend, a uncle who dote me a lot, had pass away so sudden. i didn't get to see him for last time before he die, cos i was out with my friends. i didnt know he will pass away so sudden, if not i wont go out with my friends, i will go visit him with my dad.. i feel so regretful. then 2007, one of my classmate kenneth koh pass away, 2008 one of my uncle from father side pass away by cancer,one week later another uncle from mother side pass away.. why is there people around me pass away for tis three years.. misses my uncle had pass away, i really miss them a lot.. who know my feeling, who had been through it before.. continuously three years,some peoples who i know had pass away.. i had learned to cherish my friends around me le yet i still hurt one of them, wat am i doing. haiz..
to zh: i know when u saw my blog u will call me, i wont pick any call today, if u want just msg me, i'll reply.. sorry..
peoples got to cherish ur family and friends, tell them how much u loves them if not it will be too late to do so.. u will never know who and when they will leave u..
take care. loves my family and friends..

to my friends who i'd hurt before: i'm sorry tat hurt u deeply, i want to say thank you for been my friend.. i will apprecate everything u had done for me.. rmb it for life.. thank you.. love ya

tiring

i didnt sleep well ytd night, keep waking up.. today i having math P2, 22marks loss i didnt manage to do finish... haiz wasted too much time le.. saw mrs goh in the printing room, she say she had mark finish our paper and say tis no one hit 50 marks haiz guess i cant get A1 le.. i sure die in theory de which i will be takin tmr.. same to my math paper i dont i'm able to score A1 too.. haiz.. still got 4 more papers to go .. today chat with wz in mornin assembly, we were talkin about last year 5a2, got a lot of memory sia.. misses 5a2 a lot, i know time wont turn back for me, but i still wish to get back to 2007.. how i wish i can die inside my dream, everything is so prefect..

JOB

1st paper geo and 2nd paper poa.. rahh i think i will fail my geo badly, cos i didnt study and there's no lesson for us to attend.. poa P2 is easy hahax only the cash book tat part i do wrong lol put wrong side at 1st i did it correctly but i tot is wrong then i go change my ans.. nvm i wont make tis mistake in o lvl.. ting today come my house study, lol i dont think she is studyin cos all along she keep talking to me.. wonder why today she got so many things to talk sia.. i wanna had a peaceful time to read the new paper also cannot.. i got a job le.. hahahahax so happii.. go for interview today and start immeditately.. start from 7.30pm and and at 8.45pm, i'm selling walls' ice cream door by door.. today sell at bukit timah HDB flat, i was partner with someone, rahh i forget her name le.. if i sell alone today i will get $20, i got partner so i get $10 lol.. pay is depend on how much u sell then from there u will get commission.. haha anyone interested, let me know, i can intro u in tis job.. haha tell u 1st it's need a lot of patience de..gonna work tis fri night hahax..

exam

havin eng P2 and math P1 today. for eng i didnt finish my summary but i'm glad tat i did done every questions, cos in the past i use to leave blank if i dont know how to do.. as for math i able to do finish, i think get a1 for P1 is not a problem.. really hope my eng can pass.. just now i had a afternoon nap, i dream tat our friendship is like before actually not only today i dream it a few time since our friendship had turn sour. when i am back to reality, i hate tis feeling, how i wish i can dont wake up from my dream. inside my dream every thing is so prefect.. haiz.. after i wake up from my dream, the 1ST thing come to my mind is tat she say it's realli impossible for her to treat someone who hurtt as true fren again.. haiz, i think my dream will never come true again.. sometime i wanna to talk to herr but in the end i hold up becos i dont have the courage to talk to herr, i afraid i say wrong things again, afraid tat she will find me irritated.. haiz sometime i really dont know wat to do i'm in loss, i dont know how manage well friendship.. haiz.

sunday

reached plaza at 9.05 am, i was late for 5mins. jw worst, when i reached i called herr she still home. hahax i had waited for 20 mins.. eat breakfast in mac, actually wanna study in mac but tat time is peak hr which study is strictly not allow.. i suggested to go my house for study.. jw study poa, i study eng but i only do one question really no mood to do, end up i just read the new paper.. after tat i didnt study for whole le.. around evening my dad is back, i helped him to wash car.. clear up my table after finish washin car.. wanted to sleep at 9 plus but my dinner is not ready, end up sleep at 10 plus..
i miss those times study with herr..

misses my grandparent

today woke up at 9.40am i miss 10mins doreamon show.. i meet hl n wy 1pm at mac, paiseh my teaching is not so good. we study until 3plus after tat zh come and meet me.at 1st i wanna go home when zh come and find me then i decide to go my grandparent's house.. ah ma today chat with me, tis time she got a lot thing to tell me from here i find tat ah ma is very lonely, i decide to do visit them one a week.. at least they dont feel so lonely.. luckly zh come and find me today if i think i wont rmb to go visit them.. thanks zh.. today got two property agents come ah ma's house, they bring one tenent come and take a look of ah ma's house. well my ah ma wanna to rent out her house, rent it as $2k.. hopefully can rent it out cos the house is quite old le, my grandparent had stay there for more then 30 years.. i reach home around 7 plus, actually tonight i gonna meet elene, she say she cant make it tonight.. hahax ytd ask me not to fiy u kite, in the end is u fly me kite lol.. tmr going to meet jw, teaching her poa.. to jw:tis time round i wont be late.. hahax today i going back my room sleep le.. gonna miss my parent's room, i had sleep in my parent's room for one mth le.. plannin for sentosa outing, going with ljs family =) sentosa we are coming hahahax

friday,2 april

today havin chi paper. i forget to bring dictionary for P1, i realize when i reached sch it's too late le, i was thinkin luckly not o lvl... i dont think i will do well for P1.. after P2 i stay back for eng which start at 1pm and end at 2.30pm.. only three students stay back for eng, me dan n cz.. during mr ng go through the comprehension with us there happen a lot funni thing hahax it's really funni.. go home bath then meet ting at je mrt, paiseh i was late again.. bring her go sony ericsson service center cos ytd she drop her phone inside the toilet-bowl..haiz. ting dont forget u own me one meal.. evening i clean up my room until 9 plus, so tiring.. tmr meet hl n wy 1pm at mac, i haven read the topic tat they want me to teach. elene called me after i finish clean up the room, she call me always at the rite time lol.. misses her voice a lot haha thanks for callin me =) meet up tmr dont worry i wont fly u kite. hahax.. darius msg me ask me to not to get too close with herr, i ask him back u know herr v well meh, he told me someone tell him de. haiz why is there got ppls dont want me to get too close with herr, serious she is not bad tat like wat u say.. i found tat she is a good friend.. to her: beware of ur friend.. haiz.. it's really very hard to have true friends..

labour day

today i meetin jw for study, to jw paiseh i was late today.. actually wanna study at mac becos of full house no place to sit.. we went to ljs to study and eat our lunch.. haha i was serve by cc, dont know wat he smilin for. jw ask me did i know tis guy and she was wonderin why tis guy keep smilin at me.. haha.. cc is my ex colleague in ljs.. i study for a while i think no even 30 mins, i havin headache dont know why so sudden.. then we stop study, go for walk walk. i wanna buy bookmark but cant find any in popular.. after i leave plaza,i go zh's house to help my mum take long yan gan.. reach home by 5.15pm.. didnt study for tmr paper which is chi.. my grandparent going home later, gonna misses them sia.. i'll try to go visit them once per week.. lookin for job now anyone got lobang? i only wanna work for sat n sun and also ph.. happii labour day to everyone =)