why?

PEIQI IS DEAD!!!

after work went catch midnight movie with clkl fie jerry and a girl (forget her name).. tat movie is very funny but the worst part is tat i didnt laugh out loud. not even a smile! overall i still enjoy watching movie with my colleages=)) but but i am so weird!! i am not tired just feel sian to the core!!! wat happen to me??

is my smie and laughter fake?? is tat come out from the bottom of my heart???

why am i the last person to know??? am i exist in this world??? sometime i just been treat like invisible!

haiz i am justdead!!!

finally my mum allow me to buy a new laptop instead of using my bro's laptop. it take so long for me to convince my mum!! after all everything is worth!! =)
later i got to go see physician cos i injured my ankle again.. after which i will go down to tiong =)
Happy birthday to wendy!!

24mar2009
suppose to start work at 12pm, ard 9plus samantha called me and tell me to come work at 6pm. angel know i injured my ankle so she want to me to rest more! thanks for samantha and angel concern =))
took cab from carene's house to tiong, i was too lazy to walk..

reached tiong ard 3plus then chat ard. keep on talking about wat happen in party world! lol.
start work at 6pm. as usually not much crowd. then today kitchen staffs try a lot of new food.. hahax nice!!
after work go mac eat burger! then me and carene catch the last bus back home=)

happy birthday to yini=))

23mar2009
afternoon went to lot 1 buy meixuan's birthday then headed to tiong to have my lunch 1st then continue to hunt for mx present.. haa! i come out too early from my house cos i scare later not enough time to find.. start work at 6pm and knock off at 9pm. haa! thanks angel and samantha help me style my hair lol.. after which took cab down to taka.. meet wendy 1st =) lol she say the way i dress look very cute. lol.. then cyrus and carene also came..

went to buy drink then headed to party world.. keep taking pics before the rest reach. game tat in our plan have not played! but over all everyone is enjoying and happy =)) me and fie didnt get very high and drunk.. haa! i didnt drink much..

ard 1.30am quite a lot of ppls drunk. cyrus carene sipei yini wanyee. was taking care of them. luckly i didnt get drunk if not i dont know how to take care of them. leave the place ard 2plus almost 3am. mx carene and me took cab home. carene come my house and stay over.

almost!!!

rah!!! this few days i was so down and emo... break down already!! dont know wat happened to me? i seem so weak!! i got to be strong and hang on..

i not going cry out next time if possible.. i dont want to be so weak. really dont want!

there's a lot of thing kept within me! which i cant share out, only can keep inside me and only me!!

speechless!

a million thanks to bro and clkl!!! other then thank you i really dont know wat to say le.. thanks a lot!!!

Take risk and not play safe!!!

nowadays this sentence keep coming out in my mind. " take risk and not play safe, play safe wont get u too far!"

play safe = always stay where u are and keep on doing the thing over and over again!

take risk = u will learn more out of ur comfort zone, if u fall down it's alright becos u still can get up again.

while u are fall down and get up again mean u are gaining experience! nothing to lose!!!

this is wat i learn in softball and it can be apply to life!!

yesterday 16mar mon, work at 6pm and knock off at 10.30pm.

i think i forget to punch out. opps =x

after work as usually took bus home with clkl.

loves take bus home with her! hahax

1st mth i was take bus home with cw. after cw quit tps, clkl start take bus home too =)

we been taking bus home together for ard 3mths if i not wrong, wow! tat is very long.

hahax =)

reached home bathe then online, 1st time i was muti task!

can u imaging i talking to 3 persons at msn and on phone with one person!!

1st time in my life, cos i cannot muti task at all in the past.

again i sleep at 2plus almost to 3am.

looking forward 23 mar 09, gathering for all tiong bahru tps staffs( including those who quited)

who ever still stay on in tps or quited tps are always tiong bahru tps staffs!! especially belong to 38 club!!

but still not sure can i drinks on 23mar..

hahax shall get permission 1st!

sad!

been working almost full shift everyday.. is very tired.. schedule was so packed until i no time to meet up with my friends and rest!!! i am sorry for those i cant meet up often =((

from next mth onward will promote to supervisor and most probably will transfer to china square.. happy tat i promote but why must i be the one to transfer to there?? true not only me been transfer there, jerry also transfer too.. both of us actually feel sad about it..

speechless. from next mth onward i will be more busy then before and more stressful. i think so.. will miss tiong bahru staffs a lot.. really!!! cherish every moments with them right now until tat day i be transfer out..

busy!

12 mar 2009 thursday
work from opening to closing. ate my lunch and dinner very early k! can u imaging i eat my early dinner at 2.30pm, tat is way too early.. went to opp of tiong bahru plaza de coffee shop eat. thanks cindy for the drinks and wanyee for the fish noodle =) hahax next time gonna treat them back =))

back to tps at 3.30pm. slack until 4.30pm by doing nothing. feel very sleepy so i took a nap until 5.20pm.. woke and went to washroom to wash my face. cos too tired already.. 5.30pm back to work. from 6plus onward start to have a lot of crowd..

i chiong runner and chiong bar. can imaging how busy i am.. but i am happy to do so. why? becos i rather busy than do nothing. u know when got nothing to do is very sian! good thing is dint get any complain! hahax. good job everyone!!!

actually during closing i having headache, didnt tell anyone just continue to do my work.. i believe everyone is tired too!! after i finish my bar's closing then i help angel to do the void's paper work. two persons do fast, then she can go home early.

firdaus, jerry and aunty hazel came down. we( firdaus jerry aunty hazel wanyee carene samantha and me) go to opp de coffee shop eat supper =) we were super hungry after work. hahax.

11.40pm we ( carene samantha and me) left as we want to catch our last bus..
reached home 12.30pm..

carene do take care of yourself! dont over-tired yourself.. take a break if u need!

by the way, wilson have comfirm with me tat from next mth onward tat i will promote to supervisor!! so i will super busy then before le. cos sch starting soon.. real soon! hope i can cope everything!

thank you!

forget to thanks two more ppls. who is my da ge(cyrus) and bro (felicia) =))
on wed night, they know my shoulder is pain becos of sunburn. they offer to help me carry my bag ^^ they take turn to carry cos my bag a bit heavy =x so sweet o them =)) loves them soo much!!!! hahax

fun =)

start work at 12pm and knock off at 3pm. samantha bro cyrus meixuan and meiqi come TPS meet up 1st before we go bugis for seoul garden^^

THANKS MEIXUAN AND MEIQI FOR THE TREAT!!!

hahax =) i was so full after eating seoul garden. after which we watch to The Cathay want to catch movie but dont have nice movie to watch hence we walk to cineleisure. but the slot was too late so didnt catch any movie at all.. walk to lucky plaza as meiqi want to buy clothes then walk back to cineleisure again. go there for pool =))

9plus meixuan and meiqi left. 10plus then we left. everyone took bus home. i was stoning and missed my bus 171. waited for 18mins. hhaax too tired le bah.. reached home 11pm..

as usually i always very slow in everything.. just dont know why.. this is my weakness i think. hahax mayb like wat they say i like no life like tat. very long never go bugis and town area.. been working since end of nov until now.. off day was meeting friends for lunch or dinner if not go watch movie alone. didnt go shopping at all.. really no life!

NIGHT! tmr got to wake up early again.. working full shift from 10.30am to 10.30pm. in between 3pm to 6pm break. anyone want to meet me for lunch plus dinner?? hahax i doubt dont have..

long post!! tired!!

i am so tired!! finally last week is over but this week is begin!
woots 1st time my schedule so packed!!! totally no time for myself to rest.

here are the update for past few day,
6mar friday
work form 12pm to 3pm, break from 3pm to 6pm lunch plus dinner with carene =) continue work from 6pm to 1.30pm.
during closing carene mix green tea with vodka and try but at 1st firdaus ask carene to mix with shochu then she heard wrong =.=

sipei wanna try also end up got drunk. think tat she drink too fast and somemore she not very good in drinking.
sipei dont be so negative of yourself! u are doing fine!!! be positive k! we(carene wanyee firdaus jerry sipei and me) were chit chatting until gray come fetch sipei. we missed our last bus so me and carene intend to take night ride back to bp then i take cab home.

7mar saturday
we took cab with firdaus and jerry to herren.. waited there for NR3 very long. we missed three bus!!! omg.. the bus suppose to drive on bus lane, know wat! the bus drive on three lane. siao like tat how to stop.. end up we dont want to take the bus le, go find firdaus. we had our supper at cine the HK cafe. food there is nice =) can go try!

after that we go to BALCONY there drinking. me and carene drink one and the half jar. play game!! play until 5.30am if i not wrong. took cab home, the moment i on the cab i straight away lie on carene's thigh adn sleep. i was too tired already. i was drunk.

reached home ard 6plus. been nag by my mum.. after awhile i fall asleep again. wake up at 8.30am need to prepare to go work. start work at 10.30am..

luckly didnt get hangover.. but my stomach feel weird weird! drink too much already. knock off at 3pm then break until 6pm and back to work.. i'm way too tired!!! so i stay inside the bar and cashier. knock off at 10.30pm. carene's dad come and fetch her . shun bian send me home. thank for the ride =)

reached home then prepare my things. slept at 12.50am.

8mar sunday
wake up at 8am to prepare my thing and ready to meet xz wz jordan sufyan 9.45am at bpp.. everyone reached and go NTUC to buy tibits for sentosa. took 963. reached there ard 11plus. meet aaron jonathan adi elene over there. took tram to sentosa.

have a lot of fun. play vball, kayaking.. i am roasted!!! after sentosa we went back to vivo. walk walk then catch the movie " PUSH" at 7.20pm. the movie is nice!!! ppls should go watch =) after movie bus-ed to bp. send xz home then i headed home. reached home ard 11plus. slept at 12plus almost to 1am.

9mar mon
wake up at 8.30am. start work at 10.30am and knock off at 3pm. after work eat soup pasta with my collegues =) wait for the rain to stop then left at 5.45pm. reached home ard 7pm. bathe then eat my dinner. back to my room at 7.50pm. rest for awhile and msging then fall asleep.

10mar tue
later i need to go sp do my enrolment!

sorry!

today wake up at 10am. feel very sleepy but i still wake up to prepare my thing. leave my house 11.50am and reached fajar sec at 12.15pm. take sch bus with softballers to kallang for their last match with RSG..

starting doing well. able to hold each other =) ard 2nd ining girls started to hit the ball =))) proud of them!
fajar lose to RGS.. national game 1st position is TKGS
2nd positon is Crescent Girls School
3rd position is RGS
4th position is FAJAR SEC =)

celebrate juniors and coach marcus's birthday =)
back to fajar ard 6pm. me and mr goh walk to the field the recall all the good memories =))) until 7.15pm then we( jiayu cherlyn mr goh joey jinghan velle karen and me) left fajar and headed to plaza for dinner ^^

after dinner they went home. and i stay at plaza to wait for xz and elene.
to xz and elene sorry tat i break my promise!!!

walk to pending there take 184 home. heavy rain when i reached my house opp de bus stop. so bo bian walk in the rain. is impossible to wait for the rain. and see now still raining la. reached home ard 10.30pm then bathe.

from today onward i wont make any promise to anyone. i dont want to break promise. so pls dont ask me to promise you or wat. i not good in keeping promise.
to ppls tat i break my promise to you, i am sorry!

TIRED!!!

see wat time now!! i am suppose to sleep early.. peoples will kill me if they know i haven sleep! know who they are???
* felicia (brother) will the 1st to kill me. haha
*carene?? maybe
hahax dont know who might kill me.. bro keep asking me to rest early! thanks for your concern x3

4 march 2009 =)
6.20am morning call by weiqi, thanks partner x33
didnt wake up immediately after the morning until 6.30am. went bath ( super cold), after bath i keep shivering. pack my bag then ready to left my house at 7am. waited for bus quite long, bus come at 7.15am!!! reached fajar sec 7.30am. i am late!!! didnt catch the bus with softballers =((

end up taking cab to crescent girls school. traffic jam! omg. burn big hole again =( cab fare $22.70 but the taxi driver is good enough that he only charge me $22.. saw girls finish their warm up when i reached =))

enjoy watching their game.. starting wasnt good so i keep encourage them =) so glad to see them get back at 2nd or 3rd ining!! u girls lose the game bu t u girls win the "batting".. i am really proud of you girls!! u girls have make the history! and thank you all as you all let me see and experience the semi-final...

called back to TPS say i will be late cos i wanna watch my girls to play finish the game.. today everyone did a good job.. jia you for tmr game!! i will be down to watch u girls play =)

after game take cab to tiong bahru, start work at 12.30pm. break at 3pm, me and samantha meet felicia =) catch up with my bro a lot!!! hahax guess today is a day tat we talk a lot!! hahax. samantha left at 4plus then me and bro went to ajisen to eat ramen. thanks bro for treating me =) will treat u back soon!!! x3

carene came at 5plus. after which accompany her go kopitiam eat her dinner. start work at 6pm and knock off at 10.30pm. went to mr teh tarik cartel with them (fie aunty yini jerry carene ), as usually i called ice teh cino =)

left at 11.30pm as me and carene catching last bus. i was very tired and sleepy. aboard bus 75, i start to lean on carene's shoulder. i am so tired!! i reached home and bathe. after bathe i dont feel sleepy at all. guess is too tired until cant fall asleep.


ps : this will be a long post =x



happy birthday to cherlyn =))

the red jumpsuit apparatus~ your guardian angel =)

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it al
lEven if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

short update!

I back to update my blog^^
*meixuan dont say i never update k! hahax =)

These days i been working full shift, i'm numb in work already (wake up early and sleep late). almost everyday work work work! good thing is i can earn more money =)

last sat 27 feb 09 was meixuan and meiqi last days in TPS, ya they quit TPS. feel very sad =(
i will miss them a lot!!! miss working with them. at night we having farewell party for them and celebarated samantha's birthday.
* i brought small bear for them. hope they like it =)

good news!! for another one and the half mths i'll promote to part-time supervisor =)

ps: now i am still working =x